MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Love Bryce and Raef

Imperfect perfection

So I dont want this post to come across as one of those fake "my life is perfect" posts but being Christmas I feel the need to express how lucky I am for everything I have, starting with my family. First off a mother and father who love me and my family and support us in everything we do. Who continue to teach me and my kids through example. Then to my four brothers, all hard working, temple worthy men. I am so thankful for them and thier willingness to be thier for me when I need them most. Then most importantly my husband. He is everything to me. I am so glad that I found a man that had a desire to take me to the temple and promise to love me and take care of me forever. A man that kneels down by our bed every night and prays for our family. A man that is hard working. He may not have always had the best job, or most "respected" jobs but he has always been willing to work to support us. He gave me my sons, who are perfect in my eyes. Yes they throw fits and make messes but thier mine. and I love everything about them. I love being able to stay home with them everyday and watch them grow. There is nothing else I would rather be doing.
I know that my life is not perfect, and never will be. We have struggles and problems just like everyone else, but everyday I find moments of perfection. Like when Bryce hugs me and says "lul you too mom". When Raef sighs in his sleep, so innocent, or smiles so big. When I get to see Rhett playing with his boys, wrestling around on the floor and throwing the football. When Rhett kisses me and tells me he loves me. Its momments like those that make me love life. That make me realize how lucky I am to be me, to have the life I do.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

The last month. . .

This last month has flown by so fast! I can not believe my baby is already almost seven weeks old! It has taken some getting used to but I absolutely love having two little boys. Every day is like a new adventure! Bryce is growing up so fast, talking all the time and trying to go potty on the toilet! I just can't believe that he is so big! Raef is getting big also. He weighs about ten pounds, trying to hold his head up and just as spoiled as ever! Bryce was a cowboy for halloween, and a pretty sexy one at that!! He really liked being able to dress up and eat lots of candy!




Rhett has been working at Target for the last four months and loves it! He was employee of the month for September, got a plack and his picture up in his store, has already recieved a raise, and is up for a promotion! I am so glad that he has found a job that he loves and is finally being rewarded for his hard work! He deserves it!




As for me, I have just been trying to get used to having two babies to take care of, get back in shape,and get back in school! Exactly six weeks after Raef was born I ran one single mile (and not an inch more haha). It about killed me, pathetic I know, but I have to start somewhere right! I have been tryin to run at least a mile a day and have also loved being able to take the boys on walks. They both enjoy being outside alot!
I am just so thankful for everything that is mine! My amazing husband that loves me and treats me better than I probably deserve, my two perfect little boys and thier ability to put a smile on my face every single day, and the gospel most of all. It is the reason that I can call my family mine, and know that no matter what they will be mine for eternity! I can not explain the joy I feel knowing that they are mine forever! I feel so blessed. My life is everything I ever wanted and more.

Blessed With Boys

Oh my goodness has this month been a busy one! So much has been going on and changing! I feel like time is flying by! I can't believe that I am the mother to two beautiful boys! I guess I will just start from the beginning! So I found out on Friday the 1st of October (the day of my grandpas funeral!) that baby Raef was breech! Had to go in and have an ultrasound to make sure everything was ok and it was, I was only dialated to a 2 with no contractions. So we decided to wait a couple days and then try to turn him! So Tuesday morning bright and early Rhett and I headed to the hospital, got all set up and the doctors came and tried to work thier magic! (which was one of the most painful things I have ever done! They got him completely turned around twice and both times he flipped right back over once they moved thier hands! So rather than put him under anymore stress we decided to go home and see if he would turn by himself and if not than that following friday we could try again! Well... I had to go in the next morning just to make sure that everything was still ok because the turning process can sometimes cause problems, and was dialated to a 6 and in labor! So we once again headed to the hospital to find out he was still breech and I would have to have a C-section! I was so nervous! I mean I pretty much cried like a baby when they put my IV in! I didnt know how I was going to do in surgery! I was so grateful to have my husband there with me! He was so sweet to me. Holding my hand and telling me everything would be ok! I was also lucky to have Wendy there with me too! She has this way of calming me down! Im so glad she was there!



So this is me in all my glory! Nervous beyond belief!



This is my tough man all dressed up waiting to wheel me in! Words just don't do justice to this man! I love him with every bit of myself! I am so glad that he is mine for all eternity!



Little Raef was born at 4:49 pm. the 6th of October! He weighed 7lbs 3oz and was 20in. long! It was such a different experience not being able to see him right away. When they pulled him out I heard his sweet voice and at that moment nothing else mattered! Rhett leaned down and kissed me and I felt like my life couldn't get any better! Then they brought him around the curtain to lay him down and get him wrapped up and I got to kiss him then him and Rhett headed to the nursery while the doctors finished with me!



His huge chubby cheeks!!



Headed to see daddy!



Bryce loves his little brother! I'll admit I was super nervous about how Bryce would take thie whole thing, I mean he's been our one and only baby for two years now and we have spoiled him rotten haha! but he has done amazing! He got kinda jealous at first but he's been good about it. He gets the baby's diapers and binkie and everytime someone picks him up he says "hug" because he wants to hug him too!



So we figured for being so good he deserved something!! so we went to the dollar store and he picked this!! haha He has been shooting everything he sees and if you ask him what you shoot he says elk! thanks to his daddy!



He wanted to show his baby brother how the gun worked!!





My two beautiful boys!



So Rhett and I have been trying really hard to make sure Bryce doesn't get ignored, which is pretty easy considering he's one of the two cuttest boys alive now haha!!

Much needed family time....

So this was a very long week, lots of emotions. It was amazing to have all the family here though and celebrate the life of a wonderful man, my grandpa.



It was so beautiful to be able to have these two help with the military service. Larry is in the Navy and Hiedi (my cousin) is in the National Guard.



Me and my beautiful mother!



Rhett, Bryce and I



Micheal, James, Chancy, Larry, Dad, Me, Mom
Man I have good looking brothers!



Madden, Rylan, Bryce

Ready to move on. . .

So I just need to be a baby for a minute!!. . . These last few months have been such a roller coaster ride. On minute i'm so happy I cant hardly stand it and then I drop like a rock back to the bottom. Partly because of the pregnancy and partly because i'm missing my back bone, my rock. I keep getting dejavu of my last pregnancy. I thought it wouldn't be as bad this time because Rhett was only in the valley and not Idaho, but it is still just as miserable. I've always known that I couldn't live without that amazing man, but just being without him for a couple months is killing me. I find myself missing the little things the most. kisses throughout the day, hugging me just because, family prayers, watching t.v. at night before bed, but mostly I miss watching him and Bryce play. Poor Bryce, everytime the phone rings he says "dadda?" and when he talks to him on the phone he doen't ever want to get off. Rhett will say goodbye and instantly Bryce's eyes water up and he says "no daddy" it breaks my heart. Rhett is his best friend and his hero. I made Rhett promise me that he would never make me miss him again this way! My life just isn't the same without him.

35 weeks and 3 days!! Only two more weeks!!

Bryce is 2!

So Bryce's birthday was on the 4th but we waited to celebrate it with Daddy!


So on monday we got up and went to Cabellas so Bryce could look at all the animals! Then we came home and I cooked a cake and Rhett deorated it!


All Bryce wanted off the whole cake was the sprinkles!
(notice huge pregnant lady in background :)







It was an amazing day together and Bryce really enjoyed having all day with his daddy!It wouldn't have been the same without him there!

Hospital Visit

So when Bryce was born Rhett was in Idaho and missed the whole thing, So as soon as I could I got back to Idaho! In all the mess we never got Bryce circumsised and therefor had to wait until he was old enough to be put under to do it. Well that day finally came, TODAY!! We got to the hospital at about 5:45am and got all signed in and dressed! For the last week we have been telling him that his peepee is broken and thats why the doctor has to fix it! So when we got settled in he went ahead and told everyone who walked in that his peepee was broken and the doctor was going to fix it! It made all the nurses laugh!

(my pictures are backwards but you get the idea right!)



My tough little man in recovery! He kept opening his eyes and saying mama, but he really didnt know where he was. When he finally did wake up though he instantly tried to pull out his IV and was crying saying "peepee ouchie"! Poor baby!


This is him and mama getting ready to go into surgery! I had to carry him back and hold him While they gave him gas to fall asleep. The only way we could get him to put the mask by his face was to ask him what it smelled like. It only took a minute before he was nodding his head and mumbling! Once he fell asleep though I had to hurry and set him on the operating table and leave, which was one of the hardest things I have ever done. He looked so small and helpless.


The only socks that they had were so big on him they looked like leggings! The nurse decided to put his name band over it to help keep it on. They also gave him a teddy bear that got a name band also. Our nurses were so sweet!


His mad face!


Patiently waiting for the doctor to come get him!

So after I got out of the OR it took about an hour and ten minutes, then he was wheeled to recovery where I got to help wake him up! Once he woke up we were free to go! So now he is home sleeping! I just hope and Pray for a fast and easy recovery!

Summer Fun!!

My beautiful baby boy!












Pappa showing Bryce his pigeons!!!






Playing on the slide!






Taking a ride with pappa on the lawn mower!

Playing in the Rain!!

So Yesterday it rained so hard and so much that it flooded my parents whole yard! There were huge puddles and streams all over the place! So of course Bryce had to play in it!!






And of course daddy had to help him!!



After about twenty minutes though he was freezing to death!!

Rough Little Cowboy!

So Bryce is obsessed with horses! If he spots anything with a horse on it he has to point it out and make a horse sound!! He especially loves his grandpas horse, Cash! Ever time we pull inot my parents driveway he starts saying Cash! If we would let him he would sit outside next to the fence all day and just talk to him!!!



Trying to feed him lunch!!



Papa giving him a ride!